Thursday, July 24, 2014

50 Day Media Fast: Day 16

Over two weeks down and still going strong! 
Yesterday was rough.
It was one of those days where I felt excruciatingly self conscious about my appearance. In fact, for a good chunk of the day, I was predominately basing my worth on my appearance. I was checking myself in any reflective serface I walked by, seeking some sort of validation, only to be met with waves of self loathing. 
But I did what I needed to do to fight it.
I got out of the house. I spent time with friends. I moved my body. I surrounded myself with the things I love.
It's crazy how difficult it is to do those things when you're in self-hatred mode.
But those are the things that will save you. 
I think it's when you're first trying really hard to make changes that opposition hits the heaviest. But you've just got to have faith that if you keep pushing against the opposition, things will get so much better.
Hello, my name is Emma and I like cheese.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

50 Day Media Fast: Day 12

In an effort to resist the harmful messages about the worth of bodies, particularly women's bodies, presented in the media, I'm on a 50 Day Media Fast. This includes Pinterest, Facebook, Instagram, TV, and magazines. (For more details, see the last paragraph of this probably too-long post)

I have to keep reminding myself that choosing to be healthy is hard.
Changing your habits is hard. 
Even when it's done out of love for yourself. 
I'm shifting the way I see myself and beliefs about my capabilities, and that's a constant mental and emotional effort. 
I'm changing the way I use and move my body and the way I feed it, and that's a consistent physical effort. 
But even though it's hard, I have faith that it's worth it.

Hello, my name is Emma and I can do hard things. 

Thursday, July 17, 2014

50 Day Media Fast: Day 9

In an effort to resist the harmful messages about the worth of bodies, particularly women's bodies, presented in the media, I'm on a 50 Day Media Fast. This includes Pinterest, Facebook, Instagram, TV, and magazines. (For more details, see the last paragraph of this probably too-long post)

I have a lot on my mind today, but not really a lot I want to say.

I know my Heavenly Father lives and that He loves me infinitely.

Hello, my name is Emma and that's it for today.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

50 Day Media Fast: Day 8

In an effort to resist the harmful messages about the worth of bodies, particularly women's bodies, presented in the media, I'm on a 50 Day Media Fast. This includes Pinterest, Facebook, Instagram, TV, and magazines. (For more details, see the last paragraph of this probably too-long post)

I've especially loved my morning walks to campus lately. 
I love the way everything glows all golden-y as the sun is just coming up over the mountains.
And the morning weather has been all sorts of peachy. 



Pure, unadulterated gorgeousness.




There are seriously so many beautiful things and moments and experiences all around; we just have to open our eyes and see them. 

I've been thinking about how easy it is to miss out on beautiful experiences because we're too caught up in how others are experiencing us. Life becomes not a matter of what we see, but of how we're seen. 

I think of all the times my commute to campus has been spent checking my reflection in every window, tugging on my shirt, and running my fingers through my hair as car after car after car passed by. 
I was sure missing out on some lovely things.

Hello, my name is Emma and I live in one of the beautiful cities ever.  

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

50 Day Media Fast: Day 7

In an effort to resist the harmful messages about the worth of bodies, particularly women's bodies, presented in the media, I'm on a 50 Day Media Fast. This includes Pinterest, Facebook, Instagram, TV, and magazines. (For more details, see the last paragraph of this probably too-long post)


One week down
Today I read this.
It spoke to my heart and confirmed to me how sacred and important my body is to my eternity.

One of many things I've learned this week is that learning to love and respect your body doesn't just affect your physical health or your thought process when you look in the mirror. It affects every aspect of your life.

I've especially noticed the way it affects the way you interact with others. You're able to focus on listening, loving and enjoying company instead of being preoccupied with the way you look as you're speaking and listening. You stop comparing your looks to the people you're talking to and learn to cherish the diversity that differences bring. You have more confidence in your interactions because you know that feeling subordinate or inadequate because of physical comparison or judgement is silly.

Hello, my name is Emma and I love to lurve. 

Monday, July 14, 2014

50 Day Media Fast: Day 6

In an effort to resist the harmful messages about the worth of bodies, particularly women's bodies, presented in the media, I'm on a 50 Day Media Fast. This includes Pinterest, Facebook, Instagram, TV, and magazines. (For more details, see the last paragraph of this probably too-long post)

What is health?

I've been surprised at how much my answer to this question has shifted and developed just over the past few days.

Health is not a final destination; It's learning to adapt our habits and the way we take care of ourselves as our bodies change and grow.

Bodies are not static. It's strange that in the past I have associated health so strongly with the idea of keeping my body in a state of eternal, slender youth-- that goes against the very nature of out constantly evolving of bodies.

I think I've had this sort of idea in my head that once I finally reach a "healthy" weight or and ideal set of measurements, someone would stick me on a pedestal and hand me a big, shiny trophy embossed with the word "Healthy". And then I could move on with my life.

But health isn't a compartmentalized achievement; it's an integral part of every aspect of our lives that will change as we change.

Hello, my name is Emma and I need to clean my room.